Showing posts with label rants. Show all posts
Showing posts with label rants. Show all posts

June 5, 2013

Family Chef Brand Products from Family Dollar Stores SUCK.

Don't Waste Your Money On Cheap, Poorly Manufactured Products by Family Chef Brand From Family Dollar That Are Harmful To Your Health.

As several of you know, I recently moved into a new apartment.  I had no cookware when I moved in, so visited Family Dollar, a so called discount store that carries mostly crap from China, as well as junk food and beverages, etc.. and purchased the Family Chef 7 Piece Cookware Set, which claims to be "made of high quality steel" as well as "non stick"... both of which are outright FALSE.   In addition to this, I also purchased the Family Chef 16 Piece Utensils Set in a rotating caddy.   Both of these products SUCK.  They're cheap for a reason, and that is because they're of poor quality and will be COMPLETELY USELESS after only a couple of uses.    Consider them akin to any disposable one time use product, because in my opinion, that's exactly what they are, AND they're HAZARDOUS TO YOUR HEALTH.

Family Chef 7 Piece Cookware by Family Dollar
Let's start with the cookware.   First off, high quality STEEL does not buckle up & warp when heated on a FREAKING STOVE.   On my very first use, the largest of the pots in this set, while boiling water, buckled...(not sure if this is the correct term to use) & warped... all of a sudden, I heard a loud "PLINK", and the pan bounced up a little bit, and on the bottom there is a large dent, as if someone had turned it upside down and banged it with a hammer.   This is not high quality steel, but what I would call cheap, poor quality TIN.

Now let's move on to "non stick".. Well, I'm sorry, but in my opinion, that's a LOAD OF HORSESHIT, because this too on my first use turned out to be a problem, because not only did my goddamn eggs STICK to the damn pan, but it was a real sonofabitch to clean.   Thereafter, over the course of a few days, the pans SMELLED AWFUL when cooking.. This odor was due to HIGHLY TOXIC FUMES being generated by the degradation of the non stick coating, and not only this, but tiny particles were also found in food prepared with these pieces of shit.  The fumes are hazardous to your health, and my assumption is that ingestion of these particles is bad for you as well.   AVOID THIS BRAND of pots and pans if you value your health if not your wallet.

On this same visit to Family Dollar Ripoff Stores, I also picked up the Family Chef 16 Piece Utensil Set, another cheap ass product that sucks, because the spatula, on the very first use, at the same time my fucking eggs stuck to the so called non stick pan, melted, making it necessary to throw the eggs in the trash due to the melted plastic mixed in with them...  What kind of spatula melts turning over a stuck egg in a non stick pan, cooked on low heat from an electric stove?  Certainly this one...  needless to say, the others melted as well... a spoon in boiling water, the remainder inside the dishwasher.. when they come out of the dishwasher, they were miniscule in comparison to their original size, discolored, and severely disfigured.

I'm very disappointed.  I'm broke as it is and hate wasting money like this, because now, not only am I out of the cash I spent on this CRAP, I also need pots and pans to cook with, as well as utensils, and am freaking broke for another two weeks.   SCREW YOU FAMILY DOLLAR!   More importantly, what about my daughter and I's health?  Just how many of those non stick coating particles have we eaten before I noticed it, and how much of the toxic fumes did we breath in.  Reading online, it is said that these fumes are highly carcinogenic and are linked to causing cancer... WTF Family Dollar... would you like a lawsuit?

April 1, 2013

The Hypocrisy Of The Vile & Despicable Vermin That Is The Modern Liberal, Progressive Filth

Modern Liberals and Progressive Scum Are Hypocrites & Liars.

Modern liberals and progressives are hypocritical, filthy swine
It is ironic that the modern liberals and so called progressives are actually the most intolerant people in America.    The modern liberal filth and progressive scum are so hypocritical, so racist, so vile, and they disgust me.  They make me sick.

These leftist scumbags like to toss around accusations that conservatives, the religious right, republicans, libertarians and anyone else not a democrat or leftist are racist, homophobic, and so on, yet, from my own actual life experience, it is quite the opposite that is true, and it's nothing but liberal lies, but that's no surprise, because lying is one of the lefts infamous tactics.

If you're a regular reader or follower of my social media, then you know that I am not only a libertarian, "formerly conservative republican", and that I am transsexual.     In my personal experiences, so many other transgender persons found it a problematic issue that I am libertarian and that I do not support progressive, leftist goals, etc..   They almost always say "but they don't accept transgender", or things like "but they hate transgender people" and "but they're against our rights" and so on..    But, in my own actual experiences, this is not only a lie, but so far from the truth, because it's actually those on the left who exhibit these characteristics of intolerance, prejudice, hate, and so on...  I would have included ignorance, however, it isn't necessary because one would certainly have to be ignorant to be a modern liberal or progressive in the first place, so it's a given that ignorance is most certainly a modern liberal character trait.

Although I have known my whole life about my gender identity issues, I hid it and kept it secret, until summer of 2010.   Since 1988, the first presidential election I was eligible to vote in, I have been voting republican, with the exception of when Ross Perot ran.. that is until 2008 when I learned that my political ideology, philosophy and beliefs are libertarian, and not conservative, and I was awakened, and began supporting Ron Paul.      Naturally the majority of my closest friends and acquaintances are also libertarian, or republican.  Granted that I do have a few, but not many, friends who are liberals or progressives, however,   it is these modern liberals who have expressed lack of acceptance and shown bigotry regarding transsexualism, and that it's my libertarian and republican friends who have accepted me regardless of coming out as transsexual.

Although I have experienced very few real life negative impacts of being openly transsexual in public, whenever an incident has taken place, in the majority of these few and rare instances, the culprit who expressed trans-prejudice was 95% of the time, modern liberal filth.

It's even worse on the web.  I am, (or was up until recently), very active on YouTube, and on my channel, have discussed various political topics, and also have videos discussing being transgender, and several even appearing as my female self.      The majority of my subscribers are also libertarian, or conservative republican, due to my political commentary prior to coming out and telling them that I am transgender... However, it's mostly the liberal filth that have expressed bigoted anti-trans epithets.

Reviewing comments left on numerous videos, in the majority of instances, roughly over 90% of the time, it is modern liberal scum, you know, the Obama loving scumbags, who post negative slurs, most notably, "faggot"....  Ironic considering the fact that the issue of same sex marriage is one championed by modern liberals, yet it's a majority of liberal swine who call people faggot on YouTube.    In the overwhelming majority of trans bashing experienced online, it's a modern liberal scumbag who is the one doing it.

Granted that yes there are those who are conservative, republican, libertarian and so on who are intolerant towards transgender people, and so on, however, in my own actual experiences, it is the modern liberal filth, the progressive scum who have shown to be the intolerant ones.     They are indeed, hypocrites.

Thinking about several of my friends, the very few who have expressed any form of intolerance towards transgender persons, are all progressive idiots.  Fortunately, the number of friends I have that are liberal account for less than 1%

Since I'm rambling on about liberal hypocrisy, let's talk about the issue of same sex marriage...   These liberal idiots go on and on pissing and moaning about their rights, yet simultaneously are outspoken against the rights of others, such as gun owners..   They are hypocrites, and are against LIBERTY...  They make me sick.

A lot of people use photos of sheep in memes about liberals and progressives, but I think swine is more appropriate, because these modern liberal scum, this progressive filth, they're disgusting pigs is what they are.

August 16, 2012

Bye Bye Whore, Hello Podunk

So much has happened in my personal life over the last couple weeks and I feel very compelled to share with you these things.

As many of you may know, I was being evicted from my home and facing homelessness, but working on being placed into family shelter through the Massachusetts Department of Housing and Community Development, however, that plan fell apart and things went entirely in a different direction.

The eviction was executed on August 2nd, however, we were told by DHCD that we would not be eligible for shelter placement until August 6th, so, my daughter, wife and I camped out in a tent on the beach behind a local campground for the weekend with the intention of following through with our plan to be placed via DHCD.

Camping on the beach in a Bivy Tent

That all changed Sunday morning, August 5th when my wife, at 6:30am woke me up in her fit of psychotic and delusional behavior that caused me to panic because I did not want campers in the nearby campground to hear her loud and disruptive behavior that would certainly lead to someone calling the police if she didn't shut up, so, freaking out over the possibility of facing legal issues over camping on the beach and being homeless with a child, I began packing everything up and then walked away.

Naturally my wife ranted and screamed the entire way and in doing so told me that while drunk, on three separate occasions, has cheated on me by having sex with three different men. I was FURIOUS and very hurt and told her that our relationship is OVER. When we arrived in downtown, I put our tent and gear back into our storage bin, and then my wife, the mother of my children, said she was taking off and going to disappear.

My daughter and I watched her walk away for a moment, and then I asked my little girl, "Do you want to follow mommy" and her answer was "No, just let her go.. I want to stay with you daddy".... It was the following morning that we were to return to DHCD, however, now that my wife was not with us, we had friends willing to help us, so, spent the night at one such friends and then moved to the Cape to temporarily live with my mother and older daughter. Previously this was not an available option since my wife was not welcome, and as much as I do appreciate my mother's help and really enjoy being with my older daughter, that she and my youngest are together, the situation presents some difficult challenges for me because I am transgender and am being forced back into repression and hiding who I am due to my mother's fears, etc over the reactions of others and that of my older daughter who does not know. The other challenge here is that this community is akin to podunk and you need a vehicle to get anywhere. I simply hate this area and feel trapped, but it'll have to do until I can change that, which I feel may not be for a long time since school starts in a couple weeks and I am not willing to disrupt my child's education in order to move to another town, although I do hope to be out of my mom's house and in a place of my own within a couple to few months.

I did manage to get my PC, so, will be back to my normal networking and blogging activities and with luck save my business that is falling apart. I'm certain my business will fully collapse near the beginning of next month since I have two invoices overdue for $250 which if not paid will cause me to lose domains and my web server, putting me completely out of business and losing any little income being generated. The other challenge for me is how to pay $300 in court costs due by Sept 13 for a bogus charge that was dismissed, so, I simply feel overwhelmed and fucked.

To make matters worse, my motorcycle is in my father in laws yard and he is demanding that I remove it ASAP or he'll "get rid of it", this after he gave me permission to park it there. He's just being a jerk to me because of his daughter, and well, I have no way to get it, nor the money to do so. DAMN, I love my bike and will be pissed if I lose it.

Anyway, I had to return to my home area to tie up loose ends over the past weekend, chase down some documents, get my PC from storage, etc and took my daughter to the Chinese August Moon Festival in Boston's Chinatown. We had a great time and it was a much needed break for me to get away from my mom's for the weekend so I can put on my wig, makeup, skirt and heels, etc. I am MISERABLE when I am denied the ability to be my self, and here I sit writing this all a mere 4 days after returning and I am already irritable, depressed and anxious over the fact I am unable to outwardly express my gender identity.

Chinese August Moon Festival, Chinatown, Boston 2012
Chinese August Moon Festival, Chinatown, Boston 2012

There's some great news too. Today I was in Probate and Family court and have been granted emergency sole legal and physical custody of my six year old daughter and given the circumstances with her mother, I should be granted custody permanently when the hearing takes place, I believe in 90 days.

Tomorrow I hope to be hired for a job somewhere, although there's jack shit out here other than small retail and food service, I need something, so, hopefully find something ASAP before shit gets worse again.

All I know is, I really need to improve and change my life and the sooner, the better.

July 17, 2012

Thugs, Plugs & Bugs

Thugs, Plugs & Bugs

This is just fucking INSANE!

Yesterday afternoon, a very short time after finishing up my last post, I received a phone call from the local police department regarding my scumbag aunt's call to them with false accusations due to my being transgender. To state that the call stressed me out is an understatement as I thought it has already been resolved, but apparently they had to follow up on just one more thing before finally disposing of the matter and now my day is already off to a bad start as a result.

So, after returning home from the police station, I find my wife in the kitchen playing with a screwdriver and discover that she has removed all the plates from every single light switch and electrical outlet in the house.  I ask her what she's doing and she tells me that she is looking for bugs, and by bugs I don't mean roaches and spiders, but electronic surveillance devices, because she is once again convinced that the house is bugged for both audio and video recording.    I assure her that this is not true, and that it's all in her mind, that it's not real, but before I could finish, she flips out and firmly says "Oh yeah, then what the fuck is this" as she pulls out a tiny electronic thingamajig from her pocket, continuing with "it's a fucking bug" and says that she found it right in front of the house, and then she babbles on and on about "bugs in the plugs".

My Wife's "US Government Electronic Surveillance Bug" LOL

Out of curiosity, I asked to see this "bug" of hers and knowing I would probably rant about this, I decided to take some photographs of it, and it turns out my camera is suffering issues, so, the photos didn't come out too good.  My best guess is that it could be some sort of remnants of a trashed laser pointer.  I don't know enough of electronics to determine what the pieces are part of, but it does appear to have what is either some sort of LED or a tiny lens, which is what makes me think it was a laser pointer, nevertheless, telling her this does not convince her as she truly believes it to be a bug.  When I ask her "who would bug the house" she says "it's the government" and now all I can think of is that movie Conspiracy Theory starring Mel Gibson, lol.

I don't know how much more of this I can put up with, but, the situation was bad enough when during this time the police officer called again to confirm some things and now my wife is very suspicious and convinced that I am working in cahoots with the police to have her locked up for some delusional conspiracy theory.

July 14, 2012

Haunted by Witchcraft

Haunted by Witchcraft:

Demons & Spooks

For fucks sake! My wife's delusions never cease. Matter of fact, they are getting worse and now include visual and auditory hallucinations.  I don't know what to do with her any more.

For those of you that read this blog regularly, you know about my camping trip with my friends Angel Silver Moon and her boyfriend Fapper 666.  Well, Angel Silver Moon is a herbalist, a person who uses herbal remedies for healing purposes, and she is also a follower of Druidism who enjoys pagan lore.   During our camping trip, Angel Silver Moon brought along one of her daggers, after all, who doesn't bring a knife with them for camping.   Anyway, one afternoon hanging out with them at their home around the beginning of this month, my wife was acting like a suck pill, commenting how she wanted to throw her self in front of a car.

Fapper 666 is a home brewer, not because he's an alcoholic or frequent drinker, but because he likes brewing and sees home brewed beers and wines as something to trade for when shit hits the fan.  He just likes making beer and is known for giving his beers and wines away to family and friends, and of course he tastes his brews, drinking casually, however, later that night that we were at his house, he got really stinking drunk and blacked out.   During the blackout, he was laying in the road and picked up by police who brought him to the hospital under the premises that he was "trying to kill himself".

So, here we are today and my wife has been ranting on and on about being haunted, and she is convinced that both Angel Silver Moon & Fapper 666 are behind it, because, according to my wife, they're doing spells on her.   She is convinced of this because of Angel Silver Moon's dagger and her love of herbal remedies, and she's convinced that Fapper 666's laying in the street was to mock her and put her under a demonic spell. She claims to see ghosts, spooks and demons.   She is also convinced that the neighbor behind us, the same one she claimed was an undercover cop, as well as a federal agent, a member of the Mafia, a friend of her former manager at her former job and many other things, is a satanist and that he too is performing rituals and spells to haunt her.  She claims the tree out back is a satanic shrine, because it has decorations on it. It's crazier than this though, as there is more, the gorgeous neighbor downstairs, my wife is convinced that she is a "mind surfer" who invades her mind at night to "read her thoughts" and make her feel things.   A few times this week, usually at night, my wife would be shaking and crying, claiming to be seeing demons and ghosts.  She claims to "smell" her deceased grandmother inside the house, because, according to my wife, during hurricane Irene, when the tree out back fell, her dead grandmother's spirit come out of it, because trees hold souls.   What the fuck?   She wakes up in the middle of the night freaked out, claiming to be having horrific nightmares, because the woman downstairs is putting demons inside her.   It's always something or somebody.. Neighbors, friends, family, people I don't know or never met, people that don't exist.. Always something and always changing, these fucking delusions and hallucinations.  I can no longer keep up with her goddamn stories.

I don't know what to do.  No fucking way I want to be in a homeless shelter with this crazy woman.

June 19, 2012

Landlord Harassment

Landlord Harassment

 This post is a follow up to Final Days of My Demise.

The landlord is pissing me off now.  Back on June 1st I offered him the current month's rent due for June and in doing so told him that I am in a position that if I paid this to him that I would not have money to move out and asked if he would delay the eviction so long as I was paying the currently due rent plus whatever I could afford on top of that to go towards the arrears.  He flat out refused and told me to "just move out".

 Since then, I paid $300 to my overdue and pending shut off internet service, which I need to do my work, as well as for communication, etc.  I then paid $100 each on my gas and electric and also went into Boston to get a copy of my birth certificate and pay a reinstatement fee to reinstate my right to operate within Massachusetts.  This came out to $140.   I also had to pay domain renewals and that come out to $80, then an additional $70 for the dedicated server my network runs on.  Of the remaining $210 I still have $110 of it, the rest already spent on bullshit like toothpaste, shampoo, laundry, bus fair and other miscellaneous expenses.

The landlord has called me and left voice mail messages NINE TIMES since the date I received the summons. I simply refused to answer as I have no answers for him.  Well, today he showed up at my door and asked when I am moving out.  My response was "you served me summons to appear for eviction, so, you'll get an answer then".   He got irate and said "just move out".  I reminded him that I offered to pay June's rent and that he refused.  He played stupid trying to deny it and then stated, so, where's the money now.  I told him I paid utilities and other expenses and no longer have it and now the landlord flips out stating "that's bullshit, you didn't spend $5000 on utilities".  Perhaps he should calm the fuck down and clean the shit out of his ears, because I clearly was talking about the $1000 I had on June 1st, yet the guy wants to screw around with this bullshit.  He got irate and screamed "GET THE FUCK OUT".   I responded back, "You filed a complaint in court for eviction, so, no, I will not move out unless I received it in writing from your attorney that the complaint will not be pursued if I move out before the entry date on the summons.  His response was "fuck you, give me the fucking keys", so, I guess going to court is the only option remaining.

 I would LIKE to move out and save the landlord the time and trouble of going to court, and also so that he can get it rented out as fast as possible so he is earning income on the unit, some of which he would of had, had he not refused my payment on June 1st.  Problem is, I have NOWHERE to go, nor am I able to just move out and be on the streets without at least a storage bin for the stuff we need and intend on keeping.

Of course going to court on July 5 knowing I will lose and only be allowed a maximum of 10 days to vacate, I have only 25 days remaining before my family and I will be officially homeless, yet I have hardly any income coming in, although I do know I have $275 coming some time next week, and MAYBE an additional $200 around the 10th of July.  There's also $50 sitting in my Paypal from donations received, so, at least I know I should be able to get some sort of storage bin, BUT, I also know that if I go to court and lose, I will have an eviction for non payment on my record and it will make it impossible to find a new apartment, so, I really wish I could just move out, because prior to all this bullshit, the landlord stated that he would not pursue the matter in court if I just moved out, yet he refuses to give me that in writing, so, what the fuck am I supposed to do, pull monkeys out of my ass.

 As if owing rent is bad enough, there's still the legal fees I was court ordered to pay, so, I still have to pay off $480 by Sept 10, and then there's the driver's license reinstatement fee to be paid in New Hampshire and hopefully I will be able to renew the registration on my motorcycle so that I at least have transportation, but without a home address, being homeless, how the hell do I register my bike.. and then there's the remaining unpaid balance on the utilities which is another $500+, and then on July 11 I get wacked with an annual invoice due on my business, which if is not paid leaves me completely fucked as my entire network of domains and internet properties will go offline, so, I am FREAKING THE FUCK OUT as usual, because now I am stressed out over the fact that the landlord showed up today to pressure me into leaving without going to court.

Again I made phone calls to local charitable organizations and again I get the run around that they're out of funds or do not have funds available... WHAT THE FUCK!!!!

I am running out of time, am overwhelmed and am having difficulty staying positive as things at this point do not look good.   I have posted here as well as YouTube, etc asking for donations and in total thus far received $330, $270 of it received prior to June 1st which was part of the $1000 mentioned earlier in this post, the other $50 of it still in Paypal as mentioned.   I keep hoping and praying that I can pull out of this mess with the help of others willing to donate, so, if you can, please use the button below.  Thank you.
Please donate to help.

Overall, I need to come up with at least $3500 by my court date of July 5th in order to move into another apartment, so, I am hoping people will help. There's other related posts discussing this issue and my pending homelessness and as I reach out and plea with others for help, it seems hopeless, although six people did donate, I need more as I'm not confident I'm able to pull through this alone.

June 15, 2012

The Final Days of My Demise

The Final Days of My Demise

I am now agonized over the absolute certainty of my world as I know it coming to a catastrophic upheaval, culminating in complete destruction.  I abhor the doom that awaits me as it surely feels like certain death of my mind and spirit, because the ultimate and worst consequence of this disaster is potentially the loss of my child since our nation is a police state and would seek to take my child due to being homeless, yet, on the same token, has in large part contributed to the cause that resulted in the homelessness.

As I sit here writing this post, I went into a long winded fit of rage several paragraphs in length, finally coming to my senses and deleting it all for the sake of not offending anyone whom may take things the wrong way and twist it all out of context.  Simply put, I am angry, depressed, overwhelmed with fear, anxiety and dread, that and so much more beyond words.  I am having great difficulty describing the myriad of emotions and feelings running amok in my mind right now, but I assure you, it is damn frustrating, and it scares me to death.  I am VERY AFRAID and I need help.

I don't like being in the position of needing to ask for help, because I feel powerless and it's not only damaging to my self esteem, but makes me feel like shit.  I try to keep a positive outlook and feel confident that I can do whatever it takes to resolve this fucking disaster, but I'm now at my wits end and I'm losing my fucking mind.

If you're a regular reader of this blog, or are one of my YouTube subscribers, personal friend, or social network friend / follower, then you already know that I am suffering financial difficulties and am in the middle of eviction proceedings.  Well, today I was finally served summons with a court date of July 5th and knowing that the courts only allow a MAXIMUM of 10 days before executing the eviction, this means I have exactly 30 days left before I am out on the streets, with NOWHERE TO GO with my six year old child and paranoid schizophrenic wife.

It's driving me fucking insane trying to figure out how to resolve this.  I try and try and I am sick and fucking tired of not getting anywhere in changing the situation and it's scaring the shit out of me.   I asked friends and family for help and NOT ONE of them can do anything whatsoever to help, NONE OF THEM.   I called Salvation Army, St Vincent De Paul, Catholic Charities, Community Action and numerous other charitable organizations hoping for some form of help in avoiding homelessness, all to no avail as they all claim to be out of funding and unable to help, with the exception of St Vincent De Paul who simply said I do not qualify due to not having enough income to maintain my household budget, basically saying that if they did assist with funds to payoff my rental debt, that I would potentially be back in this very same position months down the road, so, their answer was "sorry, we can't help you".   Now, when I say they can't help, I mean they can't or won't help with my eviction and pending homelessness problem.  They did and do help with food when and if needed, but that's it.

I also contacted State and Federal agencies and am getting NOWHERE in obtaining any help whatsoever in resolving my crisis because they either claim I do not qualify, or they're out of funding.  One such program that claimed to be out of funds was the Massachusetts RAFT program.  Another, called Home Base, told me that my income was inadequate, therefore I do not qualify.

It seems anything and everything I try ends up in failure these days.  I reached out to people online asking for help, hoping perhaps a miracle would happen, and while three people did donate cash totaling $270, I really was hoping things would have been much better than that since my thinking was, that if I have around 1800+ social media contacts and friends, roughly around 100 or so of them from real life, plus daily blog visitors, that perhaps if each donated only $2, that it would raise around $4000, but no, this did not happen.

Feeling that perhaps asking people to help may seem like a bad thing, I thought perhaps I could create some sort of incentive and offer something in return, so, I come up with the Occupy My Blog campaign, hoping to sell advertising and social media linking, etc, but this too ended up in miserable failure.  After an estimated 3500+ people viewed the relevant posts detailing the ad packages up for offering, not one ad spot was sold.  Currently, two spots are occupied since a these YouTube each donated more than $100 each of the $270 mentioned above, so, naturally I want to link to them and promote them as a way of thanks, but for some reason, I really thought it was a good idea, and apparently it was not, which sucks.  I even dropped the price down to $20 which is a great deal considering, yet, it still fails in getting any sort of results that can help me out of this crisis.

What I'm really aiming for is to come up with enough to move into a new apartment, since it seems easier to do that than to have to scrape up $5000+, but that's only part of the problem.  I also still owe legal debts, which come out to $480 and while I was trying to accumulate funds to either pay or move, I end up paying utilities and other costs, such as my business accounts payable, etc.   Now, while I'm at it, I should also add to this that I have done some really STUPID things, such as buy cigarettes, because both my wife and I are addicted and are having EXTREME difficulty in quitting.  I KNOW I can, and I want to, and I know I NEED TO, yet, every time I tried, I feel like I am succeeding and then my wife pushes my buttons hard with her delusional psycho behavior, which boils my blood so bad that I go back to smoking... It's difficult to stop under this kind of stress.  I was out all afternoon, roughly around 5 hours alone with my daughter and I didn't smoke one single cigarette, yet, when I returned home, my wife was up my ass and in my face with her crazy shit, and she was smoking in the house after I repeatedly asked her not to, therefore, I lit up.  I am sick of it.   Here I am ranting on and on about needing help, yet I am contributing to my own disaster and doom due to this weakness.  Perhaps I could have left that bit out, but I am being honest and straight up here, because things like this don't only happen due to economic downturn, but from irresponsibility as well, so, I wanted to accept responsibility for creating part of the problem and that I am fully committed to quitting as I KNOW it is a contributing factor to my problem, therefore, I WILL QUIT, because if I don't, things are going to be REALLY BAD and because of all this shit that's happened, I HATE THE FUCKING THINGS AND WHAT IT CAUSED. I am DONE.. I may be powerless in changing my situation, but I will NOT be powerless to a fucking cigarette and I am going to FIGHT THE URGE to smoke, and so help me god, I will NOT smoke any more. I only have 8 smokes left, and knowing it's easier to quit in the morning after being smoke free for those hours of sleep, I will start my first day smoke free in the morning, because it's harder to stop right now with nicotine in my system. NO MORE EXCUSES, and I'm not just saying that so people will help me, I really want to do this. It's something I regularly talked about on numerous blogtv broadcasts, so, it's not a new thing. Biggest fucking mistake of my life and if I don't quit, I WILL REGRET IT because my life is fucked up and will get worse if I keep smoking, and I have my little girl to worry and think about, so I will STOP! I might be a miserable prick the first day, but after that it's smooth sailing.

Job hunting around here is a fruitless nightmare.  At least four days a week for the past month or more, and NOTHING.  I feel like the entire ordeal was a complete WASTE OF TIME and it is frustrating as fuck.   I listed items on Craigslist, including my motorcycle and not one thing sold.  I even have things here on my blog, that I listed months ago and still, no buyers.  Over the last three months I listed over 300+ items on eBay with only a dozen items selling, which means more wasted time and false hope.  Why is anything and everything I do to try to resolve this crisis end up not working out in my favor?   I even make more YouTube videos hoping any of them would be successful enough to grow my channel enough to generate a significant income, yet it never happens.  Yeah, sure people like Ray William Johnson and several others all can earn six figure incomes doing videos, yet it seems impossible for me to even make just enough to pay bills.   My Google income for last month was a miserable $56, most of that from YouTube.. fucking PATHETIC.  What was I thinking when I thought I could become popular on YouTube and even make a living doing it.

Meanwhile, I still am doing anything and everything I can to turn my business around and generate more income, yet nothing seems to be improving and it's driving me fucking insane.  I keep hoping, I keep trying and I keep trying to stay positive that my businesses income will pick up in the near future, but I'm running out of time.  The clock is ticking.. I now have exactly 30 DAYS remaining before I am officially HOMELESS, after that, there will be no more blog posts, no more YouTube videos, no more social networking, and my business will completely crash and burn, since I work online maintaining a network 100 domains utilizing affiliate marketing programs for revenue, which was in the past successful, but took a bad turn and now in need of overhaul to get back to the way it used to be.  The economy played a big part in this as well since it's no PPC, but commission per sale, so, once I am homeless, everything is gone since I will not be online to maintain the properties, keep up with domain renewals, hosting, etc.   Sure this blog and YouTube will still be here when I get back, but without updates and fresh content regularly, I can kiss any income from Google goodbye.   I also would lose communication with so many people I enjoy networking with, because I would not have internet access being homeless, because I only have a desktop.... So, in approximately 30 days, I will be saying my goodbyes.....  I'm fucking falling apart and don't know where I am gonna go.   I even called shelters, and OMG what a nightmare that is.. It would take numerous lengthy paragraphs to get into all that, but to make it short, homeless shelters are NOT a viable option for me and my daughter, not ifs ands or buts.

I am simply FUCKED and I truly NEED YOUR HELP.  I posted a photo I took of the summons I got delivered today in the hopes that it shows authenticity of my predicament and would motivate people to kindly donate to help me avoid becoming homeless.  Personally identifying information of all persons has been redacted from the photo for security purposes. With the donations, I hope to collect at least enough to move into another apartment.   Your donation can be as low as ONE DOLLAR up to whatever you want to contribute.  Paypal takes 2.9% +.30 as a fee and the rest will be credited to my Paypal account.

Please donate to help.

Thank you.

The only income I know that is coming in over the next couple weeks is approximately $275, and without any resolution to this crisis, is likely to be spent on acquiring a storage bin and making a payment on outstanding legal fees for which I face penalty if not paid. I'm desperate and freaking the fuck out.

February 25, 2012

Getting Raped by Scamazon Sellers for Chica Sprout Plush

Getting Raped by Scamazon Sellers for Chica Sprout Plush Stuffed Toy

Chica Sprout Plush Toy
Chica Plush from the PBS Sprout Sunnyside up Show

My five year old daughter is turning six this weekend.  Her favorite show to watch on TV is PBS Sprout Sunnyside Up Show.  She loves Chica.  Yesterday afternoon, she comes running into my office to tell me that for her birthday present, she wants the Chica Plush toy from Sprout.  I decided to look it up to see where it was sold and was shocked at the $49.99 price tag on Amazon.  I decided to look elsewhere and the only other place I found it was on eBay, for $47.99 shipped.

 I decided that the price is just too damn high for a little stuffed animal, and told my daughter that it's just too expensive.  This morning however, considering that I have a $30 Amazon Gift Card that's been sitting unspent for the past several months, I decided to log on to Amazon to purchase the Chica Plush toy for my daughter seeing as it would only cost me an additional $20 from my credit card, but, I was disappointed to find out that the seller RAISED THE PRICE an additional $10 and that it's now $59.99.  These mother fuckers are raping people.  I learned from Sprout's Facebook Page that the Chica Plush toy was available for $14.99 and that these scamming toy resellers on Amazon and eBay bought them all up, causing the item to appear sold out, and then they relisted them at $59.99 up to $69.99 for the Christmas shopping frenzy.

I am pissed about this, because I want to make my daughter happy, and I want her to have the Chica stuffed toy, because she loves Chica, and I love my daughter, but damn, this is just too much money to spend on a little stuffed animal and I am poor.  The damn nerve of these scumbag resellers and their dirty scams.  One of the sellers even uses the name Kings Ransom, which is pretty much a clear indication that he's mocking buyers, flaunting the fact that he's a scammer with excessively high rip off prices.  The damn nerve of these scammers to resell the Chica stuffed toy at such excessively rip off prices.

I also uploaded a video on this topic: Rapists Holding Chica Hostage

February 19, 2012

Tracy Lynn Betts: Scumbag of the Month

Tracy Lynn Betts: Child Abuser
Tracy Lynn Betts:  Child Abuser
 Tracy Lynn Betts is Asshole Blogger's Scumbag of the Month, and while there's no shortage of scumbags, this disgusting bitch is deserving of much worse than what I write here.  Tracy Betts of Murietta, California is a child abuser, and if there's one thing that sickens and disgusts me the most, it's child abusers.  As a parent, I absolutely abhor child abuse of any kind, and whatever this douchebag's got coming to her isn't nearly enough. 

Perhaps you have already read the recent viral news of a naked 12 year old girl eating from trash cans in Temecula, California, nonetheless, just in case you have not heard about this, here's a snippet from the news of this incident published by The Press Enterprise;

A naked 12-year-old girl seen eating out of trash cans on a Temecula street was being held by her mother in a car while she worked at a nearby elementary school, residents of the neighborhood said Friday, citing Riverside County Sheriff’s deputies.

Tracy Lynn Betts, 40, a teaching assistant at Vail Elementary, was arrested Thursday on suspicion of felony child endangerment after people who spotted the unidentified girl called 911.
Deputies interviewed the girl and learned that her mother works as a teacher’s assistant at the school. A sheriff’s news release stated that Betts had left her daughter in the vehicle about a block from the school.

Betts was arrested at the school at 2:20 p.m. Thursday and booked into the Southwest Detention Center in French Valley about 10 p.m. She was released Friday after posting $15,000 bail, online booking records show..... [Read more]

After reading the aforementioned article, I decided to look at other news of this appalling incident, and I am disgusted with Tracy Lynn Betts and am saddened by the abuse her poor young daughter had to endure at the hands of this beast.  According to the Temecula Patch, this isn't the first incident involving the child.  Back in December, she was reported missing, but shortly after she called and returned home safe.

 So, let's get to the nitty gritty here, according to witnesses who reported the incident to the above mentioned article, Tracy left her daughter in the car, a BMW, while she was working at the nearby elementary school, but decided to leave her daughter naked so that she would not leave.   First off all, what kind of SICK FUCK leaves a 12 year old girl naked and alone.  Didn't this bitch have any concern whatsoever for the safety of her child?  Thank God no child predators come upon the poor girl.  Bad enough that she was naked and alone in the car, but with no food or water, and no blanket to cover up with.  Scumbag isn't a harsh enough word for Tracy Lynn Betts. Perhaps CUNT is more appropriate.  Amazing that the baboon was able to post the $15,000 bail, yet didn't have food available for her daughter.  I was hoping Tracy would suffer in jail while waiting for her court appearance in April, and when the time comes, I hope she is sentenced to the maximum allowed time.

 I wanted to give this scumbag bitch a piece of my mind, so, found Tracy Lynn Betts' Facebook profile, but, am not able to post on her wall nor comment, however, it is public, therefore, it seems that she has at least 2 more daughters, and she's an Obama supporter.  Of course she's an Obama supporter, the sick fucking bitch.
Tracy Lynn Betts
Tracy Lynn Betts: Child Abusers For Obama

I pray for the poor little girl.  NO CHILD should ever be victim to any form of abuse.  I also recorded a video response.  Forgive me for the "language".  Things like this just make me angry.